Woman To Woman

Wombedman To Wombedman

Few weeks back from now the Lord spoke to me telling what I was going through and he did I realized that I was so hurt.

2017 December, that year that month I was going through the worst most hurtful heartbreak of my life and it`s something I got myself into, I cannot blame anyone for it and I mean I can`t blame anyone not even a single person though my pain involved humility but I had a choice, I was warned several times so I really can`t blame anyone for it.

In that year which was last year from now  the pain was unbearable I thought I was losing myself , there is a say that says "Time heals" I really saw that as something that wasn`t going to help me and I knew then that I need to go to my father, God and come clean and admit my wrongs and ask him to help me walk me through this pain take this pain away from me because honestly only him COULD HELP ME THROUGH THAT, THROUGH ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING. As I said that I got myself into the that got my heart really broken at the end look at what we find in the WORD OF GOD: At the Garden of Eden when the woman Eve and the Man Adam sinned and disobeyed God and ate the forbidden fruit [They had a choice to only listen to the instructions of which Go gave them but they didn`t]  (GENESIS 3:6) "She took and ate the fruit and then gave some to her husband, and he ate" [Message Bible Version].

What am I trying to say? Adam and Eve got themselves into that mess they did and God had warned them of not eating from the tree and I got myself in the mess I got myself into while I also got warned several times too but God helped them when they realised they were naked he made coat of skins for them to cover their shame and me, God helped me too I went back to him crying because of this unbearable pain.

So that year, December 2017 I went to the mountain and I prayed crying to God asking him to give me peace , asking for forgiveness because I wanted to be happy again the pain I was in was blocking the joy, everything!! I prayed the whole of December and January I made a commitment with God on something regarding my life and what I was through.

I stopped praying because I felt as if the pain was gone I now had peace ..i didn`t feel pain anymore so I stopped praying about it I thought I can take from there on my own now. I stayed on the commitment I've made with God . January to September 2018 passed and now it`s October and going back to my first sentence of this blog post "Few weeks back from now the Lord spoke to me telling what I was going through and he did I realized that I was so hurt" it`s now that I'm realising that when I told myself to take it from there when I felt peace and as if I was okay all over again I was breaking myself down it`s was hurting me and only now I'm realising that I am very hurt God made me see because I was blind I thought I was being strong only to find out that it`s okay to be weak because you`re being weak while you`re in God and now I see I haven`t healed. God told me that from January I left him alone in my healing process and I started using my own power, my own energy, I let go of his  and he stayed there because I left him .. Don`t get me wrong the Lord has been with me he never left me in everything but because I left him on my healing process and continued without him, he waited for me on that month January where I have left him.

Here I am now and the pain is starting all over again because all the energy I`ve been using from January is now gone and I'm drained now, I need God now and I realized that God, in fact God told me that my healing was supposed to be a process.. My process in HIS Timing. I`m now going back to God, where I left him on my healing process start I'm going to walk with him and not leave him like I did and I will also allow him to make my healing a process.

The title of this blog post is "Woman to Woman" and it was revealed to me when my last blog post title was revealed which is "The Revelation Of Growth in a Wombedman"  at that time God told me what to write on my previous blog post but for this title he didn`t tell me, I had no idea of what to write and it didn`t even make sense to me only to find out that God was revealing something from that time the title was revealed till now it’s a complete revelation and it`s something about my  own life that will also enlighten you .. God is using me as his vessel to help you as his children and his also helping me too because I'm his child too and at the same time I'm his vessel of honour.

There is a read I'm currently reading it`s a book by the author Kris Vallotton titled " Fashioned to Reign" it`s a book empowering women to fulfil their divine destiny and as I was reading chapter one the author was on a story of Garden of Eden on how a wombed man (which is a woman of course) was created, taken out of a man Adam and surprisingly the Title of my Blog came from this Book but it was revealed to me way before I even got the book.. Look at God and his power and capabilities! So as I was reading this book`s chapter one it said that Adam was lonely whenever God was not physically around the Garden and he was not lonely when God was around he was complete! It was only when God wasn`t physically around and  God saw that he was lonely and the Animals didn`t relate to him because they were not created after the likeness of God like Adam so God created a woman taken from Adam for the woman to complete him like God did but this time around it was going to be ALL THE TIME even when God wasn`t physically around Adam was going to be completed by the Woman who is taken out of him made in the image of God after his likeness and the woman played the role of God and Adam was not lonely anymore now what I'm trying to say is about the title of my blog post that it has so much power it`s Woman to Woman/ Wombedman to Wombedman which means "God & I; God and Adam; Adam & Eve completed within GOD.

We`re incomplete without God we are complete with him.. Therefore we can`t leave him behind and use our own power and energy because our power and energy is insufficient .. Let` not leave God behind, let`s allow him and walk with him.

I really hope you`re helped by this because I'm helped already by my own story with the help of God. God Love you sis! And he will always be with you, never forsaking you as he has promised in his word and remember that his promises will forever stand and they are yes and Amen.